John is not embarrassed by his feelings for Sherlock, he’s afraid.
screams myself to sleep
sobs silently into a corner
Bruh.. Is that why John was taking extra shots while Sherlock wasn’t looking on the night of his stag do? He wasn’t drinking to get tanked, or because Sherlock was being a super nerd with his “alcohol input piss output” app..
Was he drinking because he was scared of his imminent marriage? Or because he was afraid of what he was feeling toward Sherlock right then?
I think the three garridebs moment will be turned on its head – John already knows Sherlock cares very deeply for him, so what I think will happen is that JOHN will be injured and will tell SHERLOCK in his (thought to be) last moments that he loves HIM
John will be in Sherlock’s arms and John will have blood on his lips (somebody loves you) and he’ll laugh and wince and then say something about how they never usually touch. How he thought the first time they touched it would be different. And Sherlock will whisper ‘John…’ Because there are people around them, but John shakes his head and says he doesn’t care. ‘It’s always been you Sherlock. Ever since that first day at Barts.’ And then he’ll cough weakly and n an ambulance person will get working on him and Sherlock will hold Johns hand as they rush him to the ambulance on a gurney.
