{"id":282941,"date":"2018-09-25T13:56:20","date_gmt":"2018-09-25T13:56:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2018\/09\/25\/anipendragon-priboltao\/"},"modified":"2018-09-25T13:56:20","modified_gmt":"2018-09-25T13:56:20","slug":"anipendragon-priboltao","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2018\/09\/25\/anipendragon-priboltao\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"

anipendragon<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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priboltao<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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counsellorsuggestion<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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counsellorsuggestion<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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rottentrauma<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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counsellorsuggestion<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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stop insulting yourself. it doesn\u2019t help.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

But what if it\u2019s true<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

it still doesn\u2019t help. you can call yourself as many names as you want, but it won\u2019t make you a better, happier, healthier or kinder person.<\/p>\n

punishment doesn\u2019t work. only positive reinforcement does. be kind to yourself and get better.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

#but like<\/a>#what should i do instead??<\/a>#i know i shouldnt insult myself but also theres nothing to compliment imho<\/a>#thats my predicament<\/a><\/p>\n

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try speaking neutrally about yourself!<\/p>\n

\u201cyou fucking idi- it\u2019s not that big a mistake.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cyou\u2019re worthle- it\u2019s okay.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cyou\u2019ll never amount to- well, i\u2019m doing alright, i guess.\u201d<\/p>\n

ever heard the phrase\u00a0\u201cif you can\u2019t say anything nice, don\u2019t say anything at all\u201d? that applies not to just to others but to yourself as well. it\u2019s better to think neutrally or not at all than negatively. and once you\u2019ve got into the habit of that, it\u2019s much easier to move to uplifting yourself!<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

this is EXTREMELY hard to do when you hate yourself.<\/p>\n

Cause it\u2019s like, there\u2019s these two separate people in my head and one of then hates the other SOMUCH that given the chance, it would kill the other, literally murder it<\/p>\n

but it can\u2019t<\/p>\n

so it just HAS to say as many bad things as it can cause it\u2019s the only outlet<\/p>\n

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I see where you\u2019re coming from, but it is extremely hard.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Of course it\u2019s hard.<\/p>\n

If it was easy we wouldn\u2019t need to do it.<\/p>\n

If it was easy we wouldn\u2019t be giving people tips on how to do it.<\/p>\n

If it was easy we wouldn\u2019t be struggling with the monsters in our minds, day in and day out.<\/p>\n

Why wouldn\u2019t it be hard?<\/p>\n

That\u2019s WHY we have to try. That\u2019s WHY we have to keep fighting. That\u2019s WHY you keep pushing and working with it. Because if you do, it gets a little easier. If you do, you path the way for your future self, if you do, you start to see why we have to do it.<\/p>\n

Of course it\u2019s hard.<\/p>\n

Do you know how long I\u2019ve hated myself? Do you know how hard it was to start doing this? Do you know how hard it was to put down the knife and the pills and pick up the phone, pick up my soul, three separate times in six years? Do you know how many more times I had to lock myself away to try and fight off the demons and the monsters?<\/p>\n

Of course it\u2019s fucking hard. But that\u2019s not a reason to give up. That\u2019s the reason to keep fighting.<\/p>\n

If it wasn\u2019t hard, we wouldn\u2019t be ill.<\/p>\n

If it wasn\u2019t hard, we wouldn\u2019t be tired.<\/p>\n

If it wasn\u2019t hard, we\u2019d all do it.<\/p>\n

But hard isn\u2019t an excuse. It isn\u2019t a reason.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s why we have to try.<\/p>\n

I hated myself for twenty fucking years. I am finally starting to like myself. I\u2019m finally starting to be able to pick up myself and go\u00a0\u201cno, this isn\u2019t a big deal, I can keep going.\u201d<\/p>\n

So of course I see where you\u2019re coming from – you\u2019re coming from where I was, two years ago, three years ago, four years ago, five, six, seven, eight years ago.<\/p>\n

And that\u2019s why I reblogged this. That\u2019s why I believe in this. Because honestly? No matter how much that little voice says\u00a0\u201cyou\u2019re worthless\u201d, you can keep saying\u00a0\u201ci\u2019m all right, i guess.\u201d and eventually, that starts to work. And it can take months, it can take years, but fucking hell it works. Because you find these teeny tiny reasons to live, to find worth, to enjoy yourself.<\/p>\n

You find reasons to breathe and reasons to get the rest of the help you need.<\/p>\n

Of course it\u2019s hard.<\/p>\n

If it was easy, it wouldn\u2019t be calling\u00a0\u201cbattling mental illness\u201d, after all.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

anipendragon: priboltao: counsellorsuggestion: counsellorsuggestion: rottentrauma: counsellorsuggestion: stop insulting yourself. it doesn\u2019t help. But what if it\u2019s true it still doesn\u2019t help. you can call yourself as many names as you want, but it won\u2019t make you a better, happier, healthier or kinder person. punishment doesn\u2019t work. only positive reinforcement does. be kind to yourself and … <\/p>\n

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