{"id":280747,"date":"2018-10-15T23:27:18","date_gmt":"2018-10-15T23:27:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2018\/10\/15\/probablydragonrpgideas\/"},"modified":"2018-10-15T23:27:18","modified_gmt":"2018-10-15T23:27:18","slug":"probablydragonrpgideas","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2018\/10\/15\/probablydragonrpgideas\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"

probablydragonrpgideas<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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probablymonstrousrpgideas<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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inkskinned<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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alright don\u2019t be mad but. i never read the great gatsby. i know i was supposed to. yes, it was assigned to us. i even know, more or less, what happens in the book. technically, i wrote an essay about it, i think, once or twice.\u00a0<\/p>\n

at the time, i hadn\u2019t read any book assigned to me. ever. it wasn\u2019t that i didn\u2019t like to read. i loved reading. but homework took place in a function of my brain that i couldn\u2019t access. i would sit in libraries or at my desk and just. not do my homework. i spent hours like this, days like this, years like this. just not doing what was assigned to me, no matter the consequences, no matter how badly i wanted<\/i>\u00a0to be doing it. i just wouldn\u2019t. and i wouldn\u2019t go to class because i didn\u2019t want to deal with the fact i didn\u2019t do the homework. and then i wouldn\u2019t get the homework. so i didn\u2019t do it.<\/p>\n

i remember realizing while i was doing college applications that i had actually, real-life fucked up. that it was permanent, what i had done. that i had a C- of an average and no future to look rosy at. and i still<\/i>\u00a0couldn\u2019t make myself do things. i tried to submit applications only to realize i\u2019d shoved off the date to the very last moment. and i was fucked.<\/p>\n

it takes me three years and two transfers and three new starts before i am actually real-life trained how to study, how to read, how to enjoy being assigned things.\u00a0<\/p>\n

and i watch parents of my students yell at students for being the same person i was six years ago: screaming at an A-, confused at skipped classes, punishing missed homework. and these students don\u2019t have an answer. they just don\u2019t<\/i>\u00a0do things. even if they want to. and they look at me, confused and defeated and without an answer for their parents.\u00a0\u201ci just can\u2019t<\/i>,\u201d i hear a lot, and i understand.<\/p>\n

parents don\u2019t like\u00a0\u201cexecutive dysfunction\u201d as a reason.\u00a0\u201canxiety\u201d and\u00a0\u201cdepression\u201d are often misdiagnosed as\u00a0\u201cprocrastinating\u201d and\u00a0\u201clazy\u201d. kids just learn they\u2019re like<\/i>\u00a0this. that they\u2019re always going to be. that it\u2019s their fault, permanently. they are surrounded by books they didn\u2019t read. and it doesn\u2019t feel good. it feels like suffocating.<\/p>\n

today i started\u00a0\u201cthe great gatsby.\u201d i promise. one day, it\u2019ll feel easy.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

I don\u2019t usually reblog things that have nothing to do with RPGs, but I want as many people as possible to see this. This exactly applies to me, even to this day. <\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

I agree with monstrous. I rarely post outside of ttrpg ideas and dragon stuff, but this is so god damn important.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

probablydragonrpgideas: probablymonstrousrpgideas: inkskinned: alright don\u2019t be mad but. i never read the great gatsby. i know i was supposed to. yes, it was assigned to us. i even know, more or less, what happens in the book. technically, i wrote an essay about it, i think, once or twice.\u00a0 at the time, i hadn\u2019t read … <\/p>\n

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