{"id":232126,"date":"2014-01-17T12:33:46","date_gmt":"2014-01-17T12:33:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2014\/01\/17\/ivyblossom-riveralwaysknew-im-not-a-child\/"},"modified":"2018-09-27T09:39:13","modified_gmt":"2018-09-27T09:39:13","slug":"ivyblossom-riveralwaysknew-im-not-a-child","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2014\/01\/17\/ivyblossom-riveralwaysknew-im-not-a-child\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-232126 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2014\/01\/17\/ivyblossom-riveralwaysknew-im-not-a-child\/attachment\/232127\/'><img width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo2_500-150x150.gif\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo2_500-150x150.gif 150w, https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo2_500-100x100.gif 100w\" sizes=\"100vw\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2014\/01\/17\/ivyblossom-riveralwaysknew-im-not-a-child\/attachment\/232128\/'><img width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo1_r1_500-150x150.gif\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo1_r1_500-150x150.gif 150w, https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo1_r1_500-100x100.gif 100w\" sizes=\"100vw\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2014\/01\/17\/ivyblossom-riveralwaysknew-im-not-a-child\/attachment\/232129\/'><img width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo4_500-150x150.gif\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo4_500-150x150.gif 150w, https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo4_500-100x100.gif 100w\" sizes=\"100vw\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2014\/01\/17\/ivyblossom-riveralwaysknew-im-not-a-child\/attachment\/232130\/'><img width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo3_r1_500-150x150.gif\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo3_r1_500-150x150.gif 150w, https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/tumblr_mzc5xdnPtl1rn3zbbo3_r1_500-100x100.gif 100w\" sizes=\"100vw\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n<p><a class=\"tumblr_blog\" href=\"http:\/\/ivyblossom.tumblr.com\/post\/73438941745\/riveralwaysknew-im-not-a-child-anymore\" target=\"_blank\">ivyblossom<\/a>:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p><a class=\"tumblr_blog\" href=\"http:\/\/riveralwaysknew.tumblr.com\/post\/73196173970\/im-not-a-child-anymore-mycroft-this-just\" target=\"_blank\">riveralwaysknew<\/a>:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<blockquote>\n<p><em>&ldquo;I\u2019m not a child anymore, Mycroft.&rdquo;<\/em><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p>This just broke my heart. Sherlock always saw himself as a child in the eyes of his brother\u00a0because he thought Mycroft saw him as petulant and slow. But the truth was that Mycroft saw him as a child because <em>he<\/em> never stopped protecting him. He\u00a0never stopped worrying about him, and he never stopped believing his brother would need him. No matter what, Mycroft would\u00a0<em>always<\/em>\u00a0be mother.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p>All the allusions to Redbeard aren\u2019t just to a beloved childhood pet, but to what must have been a pretty serious emotional breakdown Sherlock had as a child when Redbeard died. \u00a0Serious enough that the mention of <em>Redbeard<\/em> evokes a pretty strong response in the adult Sherlock. Was it destructive, or self-destructive? Given the context, I\u2019m going to guess self-destructive. Self-destructiveness in a very small boy must have been quite a terrifying thing for everyone around him. It would have been a very dramatic demonstration of very big feelings.<\/p>\n<p>So Mycroft always knew Sherlock was a deeply emotional person capable of great love and great hurt. \u00a0No wonder he worries. Sherlock is clearly not a sociopath, high-functioning or otherwise. Mycroft, however, may well be. Is Sherlock\u2019s demeanour all about aspiring to be more like Mycroft, more in control, more rational? Mycroft is smarter and doesn\u2019t appear struggle emotionally the way Sherlock does. Caring is certainly not advantage as far as Mycroft can see, but <em>not<\/em> caring may well run entirely counter to Sherlock\u2019s nature.<\/p>\n<p>Sherlock loved Redbeard, lost him, and then (perhaps spectacularly) self-destructed. And now he\u2019s done it again, because he loved John, and lost him.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>ivyblossom: riveralwaysknew: &ldquo;I\u2019m not a child anymore, Mycroft.&rdquo; This just broke my heart. Sherlock always saw himself as a child in the eyes of his brother\u00a0because he thought Mycroft saw him as petulant and slow. But the truth was that Mycroft saw him as a child because he never stopped protecting him. He\u00a0never stopped worrying &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2014\/01\/17\/ivyblossom-riveralwaysknew-im-not-a-child\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"gallery","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[5326,148,1810,4],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/232126"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=232126"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/232126\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":232131,"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/232126\/revisions\/232131"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=232126"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=232126"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=232126"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}