{"id":145514,"date":"2015-07-15T13:56:21","date_gmt":"2015-07-15T13:56:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2015\/07\/15\/linzeestyle-livebloggingmydescentintomadness\/"},"modified":"2018-09-07T03:24:40","modified_gmt":"2018-09-07T03:24:40","slug":"linzeestyle-livebloggingmydescentintomadness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2015\/07\/15\/linzeestyle-livebloggingmydescentintomadness\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-145514 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2015\/07\/15\/linzeestyle-livebloggingmydescentintomadness\/attachment\/145515\/'><img width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/07\/tumblr_n9qp9yYEB41qe8a0fo1_500-150x150.gif\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/07\/tumblr_n9qp9yYEB41qe8a0fo1_500-150x150.gif 150w, https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/07\/tumblr_n9qp9yYEB41qe8a0fo1_500-100x100.gif 100w\" sizes=\"100vw\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2015\/07\/15\/linzeestyle-livebloggingmydescentintomadness\/attachment\/145516\/'><img width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/07\/tumblr_n9qp9yYEB41qe8a0fo2_500-150x150.gif\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/07\/tumblr_n9qp9yYEB41qe8a0fo2_500-150x150.gif 150w, https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/07\/tumblr_n9qp9yYEB41qe8a0fo2_500-100x100.gif 100w\" sizes=\"100vw\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n<p><a class=\"tumblr_blog\" href=\"http:\/\/linzeestyle.tumblr.com\/post\/120311292005\/livebloggingmydescentintomadness\" target=\"_blank\">linzeestyle<\/a>:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p><a class=\"tumblr_blog\" href=\"http:\/\/livebloggingmydescentintomadness.tumblr.com\/post\/94497248600\/brb-reclaiming-erebor-i-love-how-terrifying\" target=\"_blank\">livebloggingmydescentintomadness<\/a>:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p><a class=\"tumblr_blog\" href=\"http:\/\/brb-reclaiming-erebor.tumblr.com\/post\/93993976436\/i-love-how-terrifying-her-face-is-in-the-second\" target=\"_blank\">brb-reclaiming-erebor<\/a>:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/i-love-how-terrifying-her-face-is-in-the-second-gif\" target=\"_blank\">#i love how terrifying her face is in the second gif<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/like-she%27s-all-flirty\" target=\"_blank\">#like she\u2019s all flirty<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/very-similar-to-how-she-talked-to-sam-that-morning\" target=\"_blank\">#very similar to how she talked to sam that morning<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/but-her-demeanor-is-completely-fucking-different\" target=\"_blank\">#but her demeanor is completely fucking different<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/like-with-sam-and-steve-she%27s-natasha\" target=\"_blank\">#like with sam and steve she\u2019s natasha<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/she%27d-eat-them-alive-but-in-the-good-way\" target=\"_blank\">#she\u2019d eat them alive but in the good way<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/which-baddies-she%27s-the-black-widow\" target=\"_blank\">#which baddies she\u2019s the black widow<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/where-she-will-flirt-and-then-murder-them\" target=\"_blank\">#where she will flirt and then murder them<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/and-idk-just-the-fliry-greeting-and-the-terrifying-grin-was-such-a-good-connection-to-her-codename\" target=\"_blank\">#and idk just the fliry greeting and the terrifying grin was such a good connection to her codename<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/i-just\" target=\"_blank\">#i just<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/i-love-this-movie-so-much\" target=\"_blank\">#i love this movie so much<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/tumblr.com\/tagged\/natasha\" target=\"_blank\">#natasha<\/a>\u00a0(via <a href=\"http:\/\/buckysexual.tumblr.com\/\" target=\"_blank\">buckysexual<\/a>)<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p>that guy is pissing his pants over that smile this kind of fear is what i aspire to inspire<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p>Okay no but real talk, this was the moment. \u00a0This was the moment in Cap 2 where I <i>knew<\/i>\u00a0the Russos got Natasha. \u00a0The costuming and everything else, yes, good, on-point, but this is the first time we\u2019ve really seen <i>the Black Widow<\/i>\u00a0at her most terrifying. \u00a0Tony touches on it, certainly, in IM2 &#8211; she\u2019s a double, triple imposter; she\u2019s figuring him out, keeping an eye on him (does he need help? \u00a0Does he need to be taken down?) while disarming him by being the kind of woman he\u2019d bed and discard, has a hundred times\u2026but those weren\u2019t weaponized moments, they were strategic. \u00a0But on the Lumerian Star, we see Natasha in action in much the same way we see Steve in action, sliding easily from one performance to the other. \u00a0The first is that of watching Steve for cracks that might appear \u2013 trying to set him up, trying to keep him in a world he\u2019s very clearly denying, not unlike what she was sent to do with Tony. \u00a0And the second (which, notably, is a version of herself she shuts her comm off before producing) is this: deadly, dangerous, and <i>terrifying<\/i>; playing the role that was placed on her as an insult, a joke, and that she reclaimed as an honor and a horror story against the people that tried to make her a monster.<\/p>\n<p>Because this is what <i>Age of Ultron<\/i>\u00a0got wrong. \u00a0We already know damn well that Natasha is competent; that\u2019s never been a question. \u00a0But TWS is the first time we begin to see the underpinnings of that competency: where they come from; what they cost her. \u00a0The Red Room tried to make Natasha into a weapon \u2013 they tried to take her body, her sexuality, her <i>agency<\/i>\u00a0away from her; tried to make her the\u00a0\u201cfemme fatale\u201d in every stereotypical sense of the term. \u00a0The Black Widow title was meant to be very much literal: no man could resist her, much less survive her (to paraphrase Bucky in 616). \u00a0But Natasha saw that; she always understood that. \u00a0And Natasha was always more than they believed of her. \u00a0She took the training; she took the mantle. \u00a0She took the pain and the suffering and the torment that created the Widow, and she took the rage that came with having the name made into a joke, a pejorative at her expense, the\u00a0\u201cwhore-slut-spy\u201d she never was. \u00a0It\u2019s the same reason Bucky remains the Winter Soldier, despite the fact that his life and body was taken from him in its creation. \u00a0Because the Soldier, like the Widow, is a legend. \u00a0And legends are valuable; legends don\u2019t die. \u00a0Legends grow, and they transform, and they become bigger, and scarier, and more terrifying than any one human being can become.<\/p>\n<p>Natasha Romanoff <i>never<\/i>\u00a0believed herself to be any of the things the Red Room reduced her to. \u00a0But the Red Room gave her a weapon that they couldn\u2019t take away; that they never had control of, for all of their arrogance in believing they did. \u00a0<\/p>\n<p>This is Natasha Romanoff, Black Widow. \u00a0But it\u2019s also Natasha Romanoff, the survivor. \u00a0She knows what they say about her \u2013 and as long as <i>she<\/i>\u00a0knows who she is; as long as <i>she<\/i>\u00a0knows she\u2019s worth more than the pejoratives, the slurs, and the attempts to cage her in\u2026well, then those things, those things are only a weakness to them. \u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Legends are so often warnings, after all.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>linzeestyle: livebloggingmydescentintomadness: brb-reclaiming-erebor: #i love how terrifying her face is in the second gif#like she\u2019s all flirty#very similar to how she talked to sam that morning#but her demeanor is completely fucking different#like with sam and steve she\u2019s natasha#she\u2019d eat them alive but in the good way#which baddies she\u2019s the black widow#where she will flirt and &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2015\/07\/15\/linzeestyle-livebloggingmydescentintomadness\/\" 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