{"id":138832,"date":"2015-08-30T18:28:28","date_gmt":"2015-08-30T18:28:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2015\/08\/30\/look-i-dont-want-a-giant-pile-of-wank-pointed-my\/"},"modified":"2015-08-30T18:28:28","modified_gmt":"2015-08-30T18:28:28","slug":"look-i-dont-want-a-giant-pile-of-wank-pointed-my","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2015\/08\/30\/look-i-dont-want-a-giant-pile-of-wank-pointed-my\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Look, I don\u2019t want a giant pile of wank pointed my way, but I\u2019m going to put this out here and say it once:<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m so tired of this fandom. Not all of you, of course, not even most of you. I know the vast majority of us just want to ship whatever we ship, delight over the show we love, discuss and create what we want.<\/p>\n<p>But there\u2019s also a reason that people stay out of it. My best friend enjoys the show, but says that she\u2019s\u00a0\u2018not in the fandom\u2019. Because she\u2019s seen how much shit goes on over here and wants no part of it. And that\u2019s sad. It puts up a wall. If all someone sees of a fandom or a group is shitposts and infighting, then why the hell would they want to be part of it?<\/p>\n<p>I know I haven\u2019t been writing as much. Part of that is time and stuff going on with me, part of it is the show, and part of it is fandom. It\u2019s difficult for me to write anything with the show where it stands now. I don\u2019t mind writing stuff going back in time or AUs, or other pairings, but my Johnlock feels kind of broken and I don\u2019t know how to get that back.Hopefully S4, whenever we get it, will fix some of that.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m lucky in that I joined fandom when I did. It was the late summer of 2013, things were still vibrant, everyone was still puzzling over Reichnbach and I was able to write and grow and get so much positive feedback and meet so many amazing people that my life was literally changed.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>But something has happened over the last year. Maybe it\u2019s just part of a fandom\u2019s lifecycle. Maybe we\u2019re all just trying to deal with s3. Maybe the more strident voices in this fandom are driving out those of us just trying to do what we do. Well, that one isn\u2019t a maybe, that has certainly happened. And it makes me sad when we lose those voices, when people are so fed up and tired of this fandom that they stop participating. Sure they\u2019re still writing and creating other things, turning their attentions elsewhere (for the most part), but I can\u2019t blame them for wanting out of this. Even if they aren\u2019t a target of the wank themselves, how much are they willing to have on their dashes, how much are they willing to tolerate?<\/p>\n<p>I don\u2019t like bullying, in any form. I was bullied far too much as a kid to tolerate it as an adult. Even if you\u2019re self-righteously convinced that yours is the only way, that what you\u2019re doing is best for other people, I would plead with you to think about what you\u2019re doing, and who you\u2019re hurting in an effort to\u00a0\u2018correct\u2019 things.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m not going anywhere, I don\u2019t think. I\u2019m still here, in my own little corner. But I\u2019m also posting this because even though I\u2019m a nobody I\u2019m still afraid to post it, still afraid this will make me a target. And that\u2019s not right.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Look, I don\u2019t want a giant pile of wank pointed my way, but I\u2019m going to put this out here and say it once: I\u2019m so tired of this fandom. Not all of you, of course, not even most of you. I know the vast majority of us just want to ship whatever we ship, &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/2015\/08\/30\/look-i-dont-want-a-giant-pile-of-wank-pointed-my\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[4977,5013,15,8545],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/138832"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=138832"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/138832\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=138832"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=138832"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.merindab.com\/private\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=138832"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}